DF!

this is me and my roommie, the one in blue.

lots of things happened between us lately. and, i am getting a little irritated by her. mayb she does not have the educated family background, that would tell her wat is right, and wat is wrong.

sometimes, i think its also because i know her too well, that makes me kinda pissed of with her.

i know its not right.

i know its not her fault.

neither it is my responsibilities to swallow all her craps. if she did not realise.

ppl get scared of her, and, ppl dislike working with her. main reason? like duh! obviously its her attitude. she has serious attitude problem.

and i guess, only i can handle it.

last time, when we were at the old house, things were much better.

mayb it was cos we were in 2 different rooms.

now, omg!!! i am her roommie, she is mine.

i don really like it, and have future plans to move out, to find my own house. i know wat her reaction might be, and how she will take it. and because of this, i am so darn scared to tell her that i wanna move out to STAY ALONE!!!!

she feels tat, although i wanna move out, we are still roomie.

well, she has to accept the fact that,

i CANT STAND HER ANYMORE!

whether she wants to change, its none of my business. and, i wash my hands clean.

i have told her b4, her temper, her limits of wanting everyone to listen to her...its all over!!! over as in really over.

bullying ppl, thats not right. and making use of others, thats worst!

and when her bf comes over, to stay the night, i am so fucking pissed! wait till mine comes, haha...and i shall let u taste a bit of ur own med.

u wanna have fun, go out, and have all the fun u one. but, don bring him into the story. its way out.

we have quarelled over this, and she said she felt that way too, and wondered b4 that would i mind. i told her straight i would, and wat have she done to make things better??

NOTHING!

beautiful. this is wat i call, a malacca roomie, who thinks she knows the world out of herself.

u know, whatever i get, no matter how nice it is, she will say, its ok.

well, if u are jealous, and u cant afford such luxuries, don pour ur milk all over it k? and, pls, we both have totally different taste when it comes to clubbing, and since when u wanted to dress like me and arveen?? u always said, hip hop is the best! well, stick to wat u always had in mind, don swing around like an idiot...

i believe, ppl should have their own stand, and stick to it. unless, well, its a really bad one, then change. but, u have always tot ur own taste was the best...din't u? so, y make the change??

mayb u shoudl do some soul searching. tats the best. and just cos u have a bf di, does not mean tat u are pretty k?? ugly ppl have their other partners too! so, pls don think tat u are pretty.

mornin!!

ah...its a sunday mornin, and i am all started to study. wed is my audit paper. 50% passing rate...imagine.

sometimes, i kinda wonder, how on earth is it possible for the uni to predict the percentage of failure and passing? its kinda like having the 6th sense if they are realy that smart. or...u should say, they did that on purpose so tat more student would take sup papers. RM100 each. wow...imagine the amount of money earned.

failing has nvr been in my mind, untill i reached this level of education. mayb its the pressure that is comin on all of us.

for me, the only reasons that students fail, is lack of practice. thats the only reason. for me, i don't think tat the lack of ability to remember is anywhere near the fact of failing too!

i have to admit, i don really have a great superb memory, but, all comes down to: how u put ur words.

if the examinar likes wat u write, u will get all the marks u wanted to. but, if they don: sayonara!!!

haha...lifes like tat. we gotta accept that.

exams fever is bac, haunting me as ever. results are the biggest nightmare
when exams get closer, i get sleepy, and this was taken when i was half asleep, right b4 the last paper...last sem....
pray hard that my effort this sem will give me wat i want. at the same time, may my oil burn until i finish all the papers.
persistence....wonder word, yet, hard to keep up with its pace.

14/09/2006--IDC

this is crazy....i don wanna think about how much i have put into this relationship, but, all i know is that, he is pissing me off...over and over again! its just the beginning, and way hell he knows how to make things up to me at the end of the day. its as if, he cant do wat he wants, even at home, which would be worst of than in uni.
sometimes, i know, its not his fault, but, he can nvr know, how much this is pissing me off...over and over again, i dono if this is because i am having my finals now, and things are getting a little outta control, but, get real! u are a man in ur 20s, and u still cant lead ur own life? wat kinda crap shit is this?? i feel tat, if this continues, and his parents still cant trust him a little more, i am goin mad! insane is the word to catogorised me. right now, i know, i may b making some unrasional moves, so for the time being, i will forgive u. baby, things cannot always be like this, dont u know? don u und?? just by saying tat u are by me is not making me feel any better or making u closer...k? i mean, get real, this long dis relationship, its gonna be hard, and at times, pissing, but, it has wat i call, distance makes the heart grow fonder. u agreed to it too tat day, and we started off like tat to. u said things tat would make me fly high, but, saying is just part of wat guys are capable of doin all the time. when is comes to doin, its way far from their reach!