twillight~~

sometimes, its not just one thing, it can be caused by so many other things. its really so heartbreaking. i find that, silent really kills...and it kills silently. just like how it comes and goes.

there was once that i started telling my frens, what kind of man that will make us feel worth. i used to say, man are some funny like creatures, when u show and care too much, they will never appreciate u. just like a recent case, melvin and his girl. obviously, we, as outside parties will never know that he, such a so call gentleman can be such a dangerous and disgusting man.

i asked my fren, is it that hard to know if ur partner is sad and down, moodless and crying? that she really wants someone by her side? she said, man are things that will never und such a want from woman. they will never know. they find us hard to und and hard to please. is that a very hard thing to do? i think all women can make their man happy. its just, if u know and realized it or not.

its if u are sincere enough and caring enough, to actually open ur heart to accept and und what she or he really wants. and, its not surprising that all girls would ask milvin's girl to leave such a useless man.

when men do not appreciate what the women does, slowly women will feel sad and lonely, and in the end, they have no mroe feelings at all. its in them. time takes them all away. and on the other hand, the men would try to push all the blame to the women, and never admit that they are wrong. thats what men are.

there use to be a saying, man are no different from cows. y? they moo..till they stop, it means, they are dead. moo=complain, expect, want and keep on wanting

cows eat all they can and save it, so are men. they take all they have now, and then, when its enough, they will just munch to themselves and not bother bout whats goin on. after that, they slp off like nobodies business! in the mornin, they do it over and over again.

a leaped never, changes its skin, tats so true. man are like that too. they never change. they just want U to change. tats all they can expect.
its never hard to find out if ur other partner is sad and down, just pay a little more attention, and u will realized. sometimes, they just want ur time. nothing else. if its that hard, then they will know if u tell. they some how orrather, will und ur situation and change.

oh my...forgotten... :(

oh dear...i was forgotten for good...oh my...oh no!!!!!!
wat to do? nothing. haiz...so sad...i am so emo...
reply also short like anything. haiz..

decision made!

yulp, i have made up my mind and nothing is goin to change it. even if she quits, i still will. 2 factors are just more than enough. at 1st i thought we could all count on her, but i am wrong. very wrong. all she wants is the marks to be high when she has finished all of it. and, i cant believe what i am seeing.

fine, say whatever that u like. my decision is made, i will change my assignment group next sem. its more like a relief to me. i dono if it will be a bigger challenge but, i know i will face it just like any other problems in my life.

yesterday, me and sawi quarrel over this kinda matter, which is not worth our time at all. well, its set! tats wat i am goin to do! yulp!

memo 1

when i was thinking bout posting this post, it occur to me that one fine day, something is goin to happen to this piece of work myself. it might cause me a lot of unnecessary trouble, but i thought, it might be a good way for just letting go once and for all.

i dono how many times i have actually shut her off on her face but i really do kinda enjoy it? its like a very pleasuring work to be done, whenever. no need to worry bout the consequences tat's goin to happen, i just wanna do it.

ppl who are suppose to be respected, are actually not. ppl who are suppose to be working on what they should are not. ppl who gets credit out of others blood are just everywhere. tats the pain i get all the time. for a moment, i tot i was goin to kill. but again, i would not lay my hands on a creature worth nothing at all in this world.

i find myself a very realistic person to the fact where, i can be very vindicated at times, and trust me, u wont wanna spet on my tail for no reasons. it brings u to another world. my world.

ppl who din't mean it, i know, but those who did, i know. its obvious. i don keep track.
ok, how many ppl in this world are not into money? who does not unless that person is farking rich then a penny or 2 wont count. but, i do. u can say i am calculative, or what ever words tat come into ur mind,(but i doubt, with ur ability...its unlikely to happen)i don give a dam.
money matters. no money, no talk. well, don think i dono who owed me money. as if i am really a retard? zzz...pls...

i am a very very very...unforgiving and unforgetting person. do me once, i will remember for life. trust me, u wont like it.
blackmagic, who doesn know anything bout it...but, it takes ppl's life. even the person who played with it.
just do something bout it and go away. its just meant to be,...ur life. sadness. anger..noThing else. accept it. pray hard for it. and i will go on. with all my classy friends with brains and taste. unlike u, carry on with that skucky life of urs. no one cares. do u ?? i wonder myself.

yulks!

poor kk

finally, my bro, KK is facing the same prob. over and over again...i guess, its time to pay back. pay back time my deary....

its just how things are la. karma: what goes around, comes around. nicely laid out for u. wow!

i don care if u hav to be so painfully bitten, but, we were bitten for the past few yrs baby. accept the fact. u are worth nothing.
i am that kinda ppl who keeps silent when u bully me or take whatever advantage over me. but, i keep them in my heart, and now, sometimes my blog.
forgetting is so much more difficult then forgiving. its true, but, sadly i don forgive easily too. sorry babe. tats fact. tats me. accept it k? then we have more fun in the future. haha

me and just me

i really hate it when ppl don use toilets properly. i don like it. they make the toilet bowl sit so wet. yulks! eeew!!!! tats so yulky! u wont know wat water it is right?
and when u sit on it, ur butt gets wet. then u mop it by conveniently pulling up ur pants. tats just so perfect.
too bad sometimes, ppl just don know what hygiene is. its really bacteria spreading! haiz....
one more, they never und tat i don like ppl sitting on the head side on my bed. haiz...so dirty. imagine ur pants on chairs in shops that others have sat for donkey times. plus, might be left there for cats to sit on. and u mop them nicely with ur pants and on my bed u rest ur butt. wonderful. they dono wat is clean and dirty. how bout the pants u wear to uni? its worst! ppl stand on chairs when having fun, and u sit on them. they have been into toilets, on roads were ppl spit...and, they nicely mop them on the bed and chairs. haiz
mayb its just me, but, doesn't tat sound really disgusting?
there are so many bacteria infections and new ones comin up. y? its because they don know how to keep themselves clean. tats y, they are the ones who create more bacteria in them. thanks to wonderful human with common sense.

AS

this weekend..i am goin to AS....tats most important...

i don care how much i have wasted on the stupid tickets..i am goin!!!!!!!

hee...so happy..

pondering

thought one: uncle wong said, never think too much or too far for ur future. enjoy it as it is now, and when the time comes, it will come.

wondering if its true. but i always thought planning is very important! i guess he said it outta experience. tats for sure. but, i really don get it.

my mummy said planning is very important. planning as in financially planned and also..strategically. which is right? which is wrong?

there is never a right or wrong situation izit? depends...this word is such a mysterious word.

dong dong dong

when u think of a person u wanna fall bac to, its always the ones u love. whether they are capable or not of supporting u, its a whole different story all together.
sometimes, when u think bac, it might seem so..unworthy of a person trying to do things tat..well, are basically pointless. but, they are partially blind at that point of time. they cant see.

my mum used to tell me, when a person cannot get rid of that life, it means tat their life is somewhat a chinese all, jian! it means, tat person's life is fated to be like this. to go through all the hardship and all the cornerstones. tats how tat person has to live. unless..snap! they snap outta that fantasy world.

easier said than done. well, not every1 snaps out. its not easy. just like u and me, feelings exists. and...its always there..following u all the time. tats y its not easy to just snap out. and also..reputation and the head strong kinda ppl. they wont. its not their cup of tea.

tats y, in lotsa cases, we find tat, ppl hav a choice, but they never make full use of that choice. they just accept how things are and not even wanna make a change. generally, tats how humans are. simple ppl don come easy nowadays. ppl are becomin more complicated, and so many things to consider b4 saying YES! or NO! funny isn't it? when tech is making out lives easier, we ourselves are making it even more difficult. ironic.

there was a story of a man, he was a very good song writer, and i forgot his name. he died already of cos. an old long time singer. he wrote the 1st final destiny's song. it was bout plane crashing. ironically, he died in his own private fly plane. guess..this is fated izit? hee..i dono..

lotsa things cant be explained. its like..meant to be. and..its the best we think it is made for the best itself.

beautiful day..hee..all relaxed and full! full cos ate so much. relax cos..no worries yet! for the time being, the moment of clock ticking was stopped! hee..tat was such a pleasure.

we had movies yesterday and also jap food.and today, ampang yong tau fu! yummy yummy!!
my next target is to bring sawi dong to klcc to eat jap food. hee..when u read this, u will know y i am saving money. lalala...lovelove!!
should there be not a reason to, then..u will kena from me.

"my clause" zzz..haha

after tat, we'll see wat we can do there.

this mid sales in klcc is so wonderful. just wished i could go there again. but, the though of having to take a bus and all..haiz..its sickening!
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i don wanna take bus..gives me headache in the sun.

again, the uncle said, might be caused of lack of exercise that made me so extra sensitive towards the sun. hmm..point to ponder. hehe..
but, starting this week, i will do some light ex. since my period will end soon, plus, its a new beginning, must get a little thinner and fitter. so...tat...i can wear nice clothes!!! hee...for a very special occasion. haha...

i cant go up to meet dong this weekend. its confirmed! van's parents are comin up. sad case la. was looking forward for this very day to come and now...down down down. haiz..cant help it. another time mayb..hehe..

this weekend, i will just do my thesis and stuf. hehe..should be alright la. another relaxing weekend. wont get these kinda weekends for long. after this, it will be rush hour ~.
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but, tats my life.