what's love?

love is when 2 ppl, willing to put in the right amount of sacrifices and be together to cover each other's weaknesses and be part of each other's life. that's love. love is being to accept ur partner's weaknesses and strengths, and cover up for each other to make things perfect. thats what love is all about. 

when u cant stop thinking of each other, thats love.

when u need his or her smile to make that day, thats love.

when a laughter from him or her makes u feel warmth, thats love.

when u are content, thats love.

whatever manner u define love, its all bout 2 ppl being together. thats it. it takes 2 to be together. and...thats going to take 2 hearts full of sincerity to get there. 

my fren, u should wake up from this and make ur life better. the world is round, and there is no end to it. so.... all the best and get off this idiot asap! i am telling u...its the only thing u can do for urself. make ur life worth it. and...its u who can do it! 

giving

that piece of cake.....

ever wondered what piece of cake do were being offered? i always thought that life was such a thing that, none of us can change. they call it fated. 

now... when my uncle told me lots of en-lighting stories, i realized that, its all up to us to chose that piece of cake. 

when things seems unfair to us, we will, out of anger and dissatisfaction, we find we were being neglected by people and friends. 

then.... again we think later. do u think... we could have made a change of out own fate? can we decide for our own? y were we in that sad situation? ever wondered? 

my uncle said, whatever happened to us, is some what like a karma. hmmm...

it might be true... or rather, a fact that what goes around, comes around. and i kinda believe it so. if i were to make life better for myself, i should try to make life better for ppl around me so that i will have a better environment and circle of ppl. however, there are times when... ppl are the sickening part of our whole living cause. 

its hard to change others. lets change ourselves. it would be much easier. i am trying hard to change my perspective of life and the reason of living. christian said, we are born with sins and we have to clear them with the help of the Lord. but, to me, no offense.... i would prefer to know my reason here as a human. being more higher level than all other mammals, we should have a lot more to give. 

to me, patience is very important, and thats what i am building inside me. the patience that i want myself to have naturally, without any environmental influence. 

if only....

if only things were better, tats what we all would always say. is it not so? my baby just told me he was so so so fed up because his mum kept his things somewhere and cant find it. despite this, his mum cant be contacted cos... she din bring her hp with her. 

well, if only things were in our control. but, again, think... is tat possible? can we control everything out of our control? can we control someone else's action? absolutely no. we know that very well ourselves too. 

however, we cant help being affected by other people's action right? when it comes to people we sort of trust more and prefer, when they do things that... makes us pissed, we're affected. when feelings come in, emotions react, we are affected already. so... close ones are the ones who can really hurt our feelings. don u think so? 

and of cos, we cant be responsible for any of them too! what they do, they have to be fully responsible. although there are times we get drag into the situation innocently, too bad then. 

so... if only is a very big word. apparently, it might or might not come true. its a dream in fact. so... lets just pray it does come true and make things easier for us in life. 

club moods...

of cos we were waiting for our fren to pick us up. clubbing days...

its tiring, of cos!! but, i dono y i still like to do. wakaka!! say i am crazy, but i seriously hate the after effects. the feeling of being tired and dead. haiz...

but the fun during the night...usually considered great! but.....the smell of the after effects drives u mad! washing the hair would take bout 2-3 times b4 the smoking smell goes off. then the clothes. aih...i don bother, i throw everything i have inside the laundry. haa...

yulp, thats wat clubs are all about, the tiring and yet dam expensive drinks. wat to do? i dono. but my biggest hope is to go with my classmates b4 we grad. a whole big gang, just to chill out. no dancing and tiring moves. makes my legs go wobbly. haha..!!

questions

there are a few questions i have to ponder in the next few weeks:

what are my lifetime goals?

what are my goals for the next 3-5 years?

what are my goals for this comin year?

what are the things i need to do in order to accomplish this year's goals?

what am i going to do this week? and the things related to my goals for this year?

after achieving them, what rewards shall i give myself?

so many questions to plan for my life. some are there, fixed. some, i would really love to change, like...what i am suppose to do and stuff. changing life basically. hehe

still pondering....as for those who reads this, do think bout ur own goals too!! its...kinda important i think. haiz...its from this worksheet i got while attending some workshop. guess it might be useful. they said, don make it too high up there. sounds like never view ethics as too high an act. make it moderate, and find our way through all the obstacles to get to it. 

guess i would be looking forward to think bout my own answers ...till then...

finals mood

finals mood=none!! omg....wats wrong. 

i dono izit because of the short sem thingy that makes me really sleepy! i seriously dono y. 

its so boring. reading some stupid moral. debating with what we call, useless theories and endless things regarding common sense in a very difficult manner. 

now...tell me tats something u und.....

the situation in seriously out of control. haiz....i keep sighing and its not good! its like very pessimistic and negative. aih....and its not good!!!! for my emotions and my study mood. 

ever wondered y we always tell ourselves we need to find the right mood? i think mayb its some stupid excuses tat we're giving ourselves. yes yes....i know i am giving it to myself now too. cant help it. feelings over rational thinking and responsibility....i think emotions win.

then we learn bout some religion. wow!!! all the funny words, hindu for eg, sunskrit? haiz....mad. practically, we in dooms day. haa....

they say, theoretically, people who score in moral are those who....don have moral. but....wat the hell, its just some stupid memorizing power, which i dont have currently...YET!

i just cant wait for this sem to be over, next sem comes in...and i think....it would be more....of a finals mood. it makes me feel very guilty if i don't study, yet....i have no mood to. well....tell me bout being a last min girl...its the 1st paper tomorrow and i am slacking like its not even important! @@@@...yea yea....i know.....

oh no!!!!!

oh dear...moodless. no mood to study, or do anything. 1st day bac after kinda long study week at jb. and....aih aih....sad case. NO MOOD!!!! ish!!

watever it is, i am in no mood at all, and i hate it. i gotta study, and donkey is comin. i cant imagine wat will i become then..haha..!!

but, i don want him to go over to his frens place in between...so...i MUST study now, to be able to spend a little more time with him. we're both going bac on the 18th. and.....sad case is...we WONT know when we are meeting each other again. well....the so call genting trip is cancel so....looks like..i might make arrangements to go to penang...

but, tat's if he wants me there...waa....emo emo emo.

watever.....

if i wanna go...he cant say much. hehe...lalala

but....again, i will think, who cares of this stupid finals.. i don wanna think about it. i wont be able to get 3.0 anyways...so...wats the point?