of cos!

funny. today, one of my frens said, she loves oni tax. well, she did well in her tax. of cos...she liked it. however.....why the interest? y oni tax did she planned to do well? or..have to do well?

just last sem, we had our basic tax paper. and then happened this great outstanding drama. now...we're having our advanced tax. and the same drama did not occur. but...changed faces.

how? she was scared. she admitted it herself. i know. she knows tat if she din do well, she will have to bare a lot of cost. and those cost, will never be easy to repay. even now.
at this point of time, a person in trouble will never find another solution, no one will help her. every1 wants to see the real her. lo and behold, she did much better than expected. how? haha...i wonder. poor sinyin, the amazing pain that she has to go through now is something no one can und. she was...being...brutally killed just like tat. one shot on her face. pap!

and it all ended with peiqi saying, i like tax. ironically, the oni reason was far from the love of tax. it was more to prove herself and for once and for all, clean her dirty soul alive. never will anyone believe the poor little sinyin again. never. its proven dead right.

think about it

suddenly, today, i asked myself, izit really what i will be? or izit really what i want?

is studies my cup of tea? is this corporate life style my future commitment? is it this kinda life that i will have to go through?

currently, i really dono. i don like but still i had to go through. all these while, i struggled with sickening accounts and all its stupid subjects. and now, here i am, and wondering is it a waste of my time? doin something i have no interest and future in. mastering something i cant master even for that mili second. trying to figure out things using logic and fighting to pass every test.

is it really worth?

i really dono...anything...not at all. ppl say since u are at this level, y not just continue. but, izit really what i want? is that degree something that i really want in my life? i don see the connection between me and accounts. nor with any audit work. nor...with any of any any of them. so...wats the point of goin on and struggling through all the pain?

i find myself in a position tat i have no choice. if i had, i wont continue. but, do i? how izit possible that one would find it...so interesting and fun to take up something u really liked? but, again, would i really do well in that condition?


i dono. what is seen now is a big no. i don do well in my studies. and all these while, i have just been a show of my own play. have i? or....did i play my show well? just like what augustus ceaser said b4 his lying bed. did he? do his part in the role of a king well? or was he not? am i? or am i not?

this play will last till my life ends. and i will think bac again just like he did. did i do it well? did i play the part i played well?

wat?~~~

i read one of my fren's personal msg on her msn today and guess wat? she wrote there, i am a slut. haiz...how could such a thing happen? and do u know who she is? the chairman of CDS. omg!!!!

anyways, how a person views themselves actually brings them to a certain level of self-esteem. today, i read a mail, by my dad, he forwarded it to me. inside, i wanna be the coffee. i wanna be the coffee that gives out extra aroma and never fails to bring a smile. not the carrot nor the stupid eggs. zzz...

tats wat i should do. my life now is busy, and i should say, very uncertain. the next min, something pops out and wala! i am gone for good. to me, i just wanna be happy and content with what i have now and be thankful for such a wonderful and great experience. look, how many ppl can go thriugh wat i am goin through now? hehe....not many i guess. tats y i know how its like. and i will know what its like.

for the time being, i just wanna climb bac slowly to the 3.0 girl i am. at least i am for good. looking on how things were, no point giving up, no use also. no one is goin to encourage that. hehe...so, just hang on tight and i will try my very best. i have nothing to fear...just get it over and done with happily. hehe

my frens said, y are u so busy? this cant go that cant go...everything cant go. well, my frens, too bad. i just wanna be busy for the time being. i am not scared of loosing any of them. i know there are ppl everywhere. and, i am not in the mood of continuing something on with them if they cant und anything at all. as frens, they got to. i don mind not goin,. nor do i mind losing such frens.

van said, just do wats right. dong said so too, just tat he cant und y i gotta make it till i cant find time for my frens. although he said, just find time for him is enough. haha...
my mum said, y bother? she actually cant und y i am so busy and they are not! my sis said, she is just as busy as i am. cos her finals is comin. well, lets all get busy and enjoy the business we can now. who knows in the future, we might not even be busy cos we're jobless? haha....

thanks for all

i seriously have to thank my mummy for all the great trainin given to me since young. since young, i have learn how to cook and clean everything in the house.
just a matter of, am i willing to do it or not. tat's all.

sadly for some ppl, they cant even was simple things properly. and tats a very sad case. i should say, very disappointing. as ladies, cleaning up and washing is the most basics. going bac to the most ancient, it has always been a ladies job. although we are looking at equality between man and woman, but, somehow or rather, this always falls under a woman's duty.

how can u not scrub the floor when washing the toilet? tats y, its not easy...u gotta put in energy and not just simply touch it on its nice surface and let it be. its shocking tat there are ppl nowadays, with a degree holder's mentality to do such a stupid thing.

and then, go on complaining bout others cos they din do their work properly? or...did not do at all? come on...u din do much of a good job urself either!
anyways, don pinpoint at others and see what u have to show. then, if its much better, u got all the right to complain. don slap ur own face just like an idiot! @@

hehe

baby said he's buying something for me...i wonder what. hehe...
so sweet. i just cant wait for him to come. its this thursday. yippy!!

we haven met for a long time...and i really miss him so so so much!
time passes slow la when u are waiting for dong! hehe...
but, its goin to b busy days for me b4 that...cos, monday i gotta go library, tuesday got discussion, wed got interview and thursday after class got discussion too. he'll come at night!

love love!!

if oni....

if oni sports shoes where ok. if only. haiz...
had 2 whole days of traveling. was really kinda madness lah. walking here and there like some mad cows..haha..but, some kinda experience we had also. seems tat utm is a great place to b. its really not as zzz an stupid as we tot it would be. sadly, din manage to get any pics, cos, i forgot to bring the camera! left it in the car. ish...silly me! hhaa
they really have nice views and cool places to chill out.

now, its a sat and i am bac, in sg long. just resting and chilling. i want to start my work sooner or later. my revisions also. tuesday is presentation and also...thesis discussion. monday might wanna stop by the library to make some reference. want to see some examples too! hee..

wed is monash day. interviewing all the big ppl out there. hopefully though. cos, they might be so busy. its monash's open day. so...wonder y are they there for. then thurs my dong is comin. so sweet. cant wait for him to come over. its such a long time. our 1st anii. hehe...meeting my cousin too! for lunchy! my sister...wonder if she can join us for just a meal. hope so!

well, lots of thing happened. my sis lost her hp, silly her...now she gotta buy one herself. hehe...

i plan to get a new one too. after all the hard work, and running, to sort of...give myself a treaty! gege....mummy din seem to say much, just complain like usual lah. hehe....
mayb will get it next month. when my 2 months salary is out! haha.....dong's fren will get it for me. then will pay him bac! yeah!!

well, busy busy...but, yet, i kinda enjoy this kinda moments where i really squeeze my life here and there. its a real great experience. hehe...kena marah all and get things done through the hp..blah blah blah...all the stuf lah. haha....its kinda interesting though, to walk around places that u dont know, asking around like some kinda mad cow...haha...its seriously...amazing! haha

hump

attitude prob. this is seriously attitude problem man. sometimes, i just hates it so much tat i just don wanna look at her face. she scares ppl by comin at the door like a ghost. if she can really walk that slowly, and softly, why cant she do things the same way too? softly and nicely? she bangs like nobody's biz, no wonder no one likes her. must be the karma effect.

everytime, ppl just got to keep quiet and not bother, swallow everything. now ppl are having brains, why on earth do they have to put up with her?

her volume is terrible, and she is only talking in the room. why? is she born with such a loud and ugly voice? is she tat insensible to to the extreme that she is brainless? i really wonder what she thinks of herself. as someone worthy or someone useless on earth.

getting into another prob is ur own choice, don blame others and make things having to go ur way just because you are busy. just because u are busy and things have to go ur way is not a very pleasing excuse for ppl to give in to u. as u know, ppl have always been giving in to u. and, thats bad. really bad. to the extend that, ppl hate it and cant stand it anymore. there is reasons behind everything step others make, they dont do it for fun. you can just on sticking to ur guy frens and not let them say anything about u. even if they did, u would happily accept it right? unlike if its comin out from a female. its the total opposite.

see...see how far u can squimp ur way through this yr. i wont give in to u anymore, and i have had enough. its not ur way all the time. i feel, my patience have come to a stop and i don see y i should give in to a nonsentic asshole like u.

2 more to go

yulp, another 2 more test to go. one more on this sat, accounts paper and another the week comin, ecommerce. but...on week10, there is another subjective test, which is...RMP. dam it. i just hate yappy so much. i cant understand, how a professional can actually gain that kinda status with his current ability. yes, when the management is on heels and feet, they wanna make someone into someone. but, they have overlooked certain things. which, has a big impact on all of us.

we were having a chat the other day and low and behold, his ugly image portray the ugly little duckling. well, what to do? u cant hide secrets unless, its not one. sooner or later, it will be revealed. how long can he do that..?? no one knows, but, who cares, we just gotta protect ourselves from now on.

its a terrible thing tat we gotta go through but, its a hoice made and done.

logic

He that cannot reason is a fool.
He that will not is a bigot.
He that dare not is a slave.

~Andrew Carnegie

wow...logic is somewhat in between. its hard to understand logic. seriously. ppl today...only look at what is taught on books, nothing more nothing less. and, everything is based solely on, ur books. so, tell me how many ppl have logic minds in the, and think logically?

i use to remember, my teacher used to say, its common sense. so, whats commons sense? no one is born with common sense. its the exposure that we get to actually get and know common sense. and, that is when we know and start to be aware. learn and then apply.