think about it

suddenly, today, i asked myself, izit really what i will be? or izit really what i want?

is studies my cup of tea? is this corporate life style my future commitment? is it this kinda life that i will have to go through?

currently, i really dono. i don like but still i had to go through. all these while, i struggled with sickening accounts and all its stupid subjects. and now, here i am, and wondering is it a waste of my time? doin something i have no interest and future in. mastering something i cant master even for that mili second. trying to figure out things using logic and fighting to pass every test.

is it really worth?

i really dono...anything...not at all. ppl say since u are at this level, y not just continue. but, izit really what i want? is that degree something that i really want in my life? i don see the connection between me and accounts. nor with any audit work. nor...with any of any any of them. so...wats the point of goin on and struggling through all the pain?

i find myself in a position tat i have no choice. if i had, i wont continue. but, do i? how izit possible that one would find it...so interesting and fun to take up something u really liked? but, again, would i really do well in that condition?


i dono. what is seen now is a big no. i don do well in my studies. and all these while, i have just been a show of my own play. have i? or....did i play my show well? just like what augustus ceaser said b4 his lying bed. did he? do his part in the role of a king well? or was he not? am i? or am i not?

this play will last till my life ends. and i will think bac again just like he did. did i do it well? did i play the part i played well?