what kinda person am i??

i seriously wonder.....

haha...i started thinkin of this question when one of my fren's member was admitted into the hospital. after a whole week of hospitalized mood, its the assignment week. both assignments to be submitted on the same week, which is tomorrow!

so...he is a weak guy. in fact, in and out of clinics and hospitals. very frequent. kinda boring, and not very strong for a guy. as a vegetarian, he should be....stronger, due to healthy living.

but, hey...dud!! its the wrong thing here. and i kinda got tired with his sick life. if i were a boss, i would have fired him a long time ago. i am cruel? because i want to fire him of his weak body? business is business. however good we are, there should be ppl being sacrificed. ppl like these who stand in the way for better up coming achievements, should be long gone. i am growing, so is the business. how can i have such kind of weak yet irresponsible person in my workplace?

same goes to a group. be realistic. come on. how long can u keep him up? i wont. for sure. how long can u give monthly salary to people like this? not for long. trust me. tats life. 

my fren there...abby, has to do most of the things. i dono....how should i say it but, its the person who is in that situation only can they feel how much torture it is. i remember....those days of...'sial' face they call it. haha...they are long gone now. what i relief!! now...there are ppl around...and these kinda ppl should be more considerate. 

do everything urself then. no choice. thats wat one of the other saint members said. wow.....i was impressed. i am!!! really!!!

very...

how could someone say that? oni saints can. cos they are the most extra ordinary being on earth. regardless of what come to them....come what may. yes...praise the lord. 

i see.....

i was looking through msn pms just now and i saw this very interesting note.

'when u are at the top, don forget where u came from'

very interesting. when ppl reach a place where they are very high up, somehow.....many forget where they are from. just like u, cheryl. u have obviously forgotten where u came from. 

do you remember how u actually talked in front of all of us? do you remember a amount of shit u have shitted in front of many of us? the amount of crap u ate and fed us??

i was feeling a little happy with the progress...but, never think that it is when its not. u know its not. we know its not too. try not telling anyone, and u should hide it from everyone, not a single sole should know. don't u think so??

my dear, there is a time when ppl had fate in u. now...it has all became hatred and boredom. y?

u ask urself. 

never fear whats comin on, but be proud that u HAVE problems comin up. this means that there is progress!!!!

however, running away from problems is so wrong. however, when we cant take charge and make the change, the best is just run away from it. are u not capable of taking charge now? my dear, u could have make a lot of WONDERFUL changes, many PROGRESSIVE actions. but did u? 

ask yourself.

i ran away from a problem that i personally cannot change. other ppl's attitude problem. but, i never ran away from MY OWN problem. oni a coward will do that. only a FOOL would. and, it sounds a lot like u my dear.

laziness has made u a very stupid person, someone who cannot think straight. i heard from someone i think very sensible and responsible that u are proudly lazy of ur actions and being very very silly in making decision. making underground movements to get ppl out of their positions, and make them give up. that's u my dear, very dirty little rat. 

u are not looking around properly, blinded with LOVE. or...izit love i should call, someone who makes use of u to take actions on others he does not like?? only a fool would be tricked. and that sounds just so much like u my dear. 

now i ask myself, what was it that made u out-stand others the last time. and it was ur mouth my dear. and that very same mouth that might bring u down, my dear chairman. its ur choice my dear chairman. a path u can take, or change, depending on urself. 

tc my dear chairman. u sound oni like the best, but....sadly, u are the worst of the worse. 

war!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

war is like...trouble. trouble comin to an end is like war comin to an end. 

war is forever there. there wont be any century without war. internal or external. 

we learn that war is indeed in need. or is it just the need of power?

in war, there are good and bad people. in war, either one wins, the other loses. when the time is right, the flag is flagged. when the time is not, they will be burn. 

in war, who benefits? the greatest man at the top. of cos, not much of a gain. 

will malaysia have war?? just like all other countries? i think its bout time to have war!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its interesting and malaysians might like tat. it attracts attention of media and the WHOLE world. hehe...tats a whole lot of importance. 

wat was taught

wat was taught when we were young is no longer being remembered. wat was a major morals tat were implant in our brains were no longer applied. how true that this life is all bout education?

we pay almost half our lives studying, paying for education, to learn whats needed and wanted to make that living. but, how far are we going with that of what we had? are we really something that we want to be? 

since young, we had had dreams. dreams that were until today, not yet fulfilled. mayb some, but not all. u can say...tats enough. better than none. but...think again, how many dreams can we hav when we were young? those were the days.

those were the days my fren....the song rings, and yet, never put into much importance. the playing and laughing, i missed so much. a long long time ago, u used to think that ppl were good, but circumstances made them bad, i symphatis them. i pitied them. 

now, no one is out there to give pity tears to ppl on the road. so many fake beggers around the world. waiting to pound on ur silly pity. i wondered, where were my innocent thoughts. where did they go? why are we now in such a place where.....we cant even trust our frens no more? 

the tot that life was getting complicated is scary. i dono if its really comin, but....we all can feel it. see and know its comin. 

tiring

when u say things are done, they might be done for the timebeing, but...u wont know when it will come straight bac to u again. yulp, when i say i am done, with my thesis....tats a big word. no one knows if its really done, or...izit just another fake done. 

always, in everyday, it seem like a fake done. as it has always been one. so....wats the difference? hehe....

finally...like a stone off the chest. haha

haiz

i did it again, brought myself into trouble. everything is ruin by her. its always her. all my initial plans and all. i feel so sad. wats her prob? or...my prob? izit i am such a bad person? do i deserve all this? 

ewwwww!!!!!!

i hate her. i really do. she is so sickening. she makes ur day la if u wanna be emo whole day. if u wanna stay at home and look at something u never want to....just get a mail from her and tats it man!!!!!!!

and she acts as if, she cares. she does??? omg. tats nightmare!!!!!!!

y did we chose this road? there are many paths to take, many more better ones, but, y??? cos, its fate. we were meant to be tortured by this lady.

remember, the queen of Egypt? haiz....she is just like tat monster. its....a big long nightmare. and we all cant wait for it to be over. its just a matter of time right? haiz...its a very sad road. 

and i HATE it!!!!!!!!!!!!!