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ah...the feeling is growing day by day.
i dono...god. its not a very good thing right?
to go really into ur bf and stuf when u are not really sure about it?

no matter how sure we are, there is always a possibility. anything
can happen. we might or might not like it.
that's for sure.
same goes to me. its just tat...
i am really missing my baby.
we are in this long distance relationship and
i really cant wait to see him again. we just met each other early this month...
and
he will only be here again to see me next month. middle of next month.
oh god....the missing is a torture....

it has only been bout 3 months??
i never thought of putting serious thoughts into this relationship.
mayb its because i don really have faith in it. i am scared.
mayb the past still haunts.
and, i am feling it.
i know that its the past, but ppl learn fr it right?
tat's wat i am doin...

we are from different family background
and race
he is punjabi, and i am a chinese
i dono wat my parents will say
but, i think i am really into him.
i dono how i can be so vulnarable to let my feelings grow too much.
as for him, he used to b a playboy
he has the height, the looks maybe, and
he is a state tenis player
but an injured one, to be precise.
haahaa...org cacat.

but, i dono how he became tat serious and
i was just trapped in his game.
mayb its just me being weak
but, i like that weak feeling to take over me.
he cares for me, although a little too much
which makes me a lettle hard to breath
and his parents are so strict
which makes me scared.
i wonder if there would be a day when his parents will stop us fr being together.
cos, thats really goin to hurt me a lot!

i find this relationship growing
and he is partly responsible for this. of cos...
he is my bf!!!! duh....
but, i hope this will go far,
i am tired of changin my partners.
cos, i love him!