don care if u don bother

of cos...life goes on without ppl around u. it..depends, wat kind of ppl u are mixing with. it goes on to influence ur thinking, ur needs, ur way of handling other...many thing.. but, all goes down to, who u really are.

deep down inside, u may be someone, but, do others look at u and say:'yea...she/he is some one.' do they? or do they look at u and don bother to give any comments?

if u wanna be someone ppl bother talking about, in their daily lives, then be tat some one sincerely. don fake it out just to somebody ppl talk about. its so irritating! zzz

fake ppl are the worst kinda human kind possible. they think oni bout fame and not sincerity. its really pissing ppl off. well, its the education in them tat is not making their lives worthwhile. sad case..come all the way up to a uni standard, and this is wat they have. o.......

bad bad day!

today is a bad day for me. things din go right. came bac from tax, went to old town for frens birthday celebration. then after tat, zzz...felt so....zzz...cant slp but tired, cant study cos tired, cant do anything. haiz.

then now, dong is giving me prob...making me feel..very sad, mummy and kai kai quarreling, so many probs...zzz....all these ppl, they make my life interesting yes, i admit. but, izit at this time? haiz....

communication

wats communication? to me, it can be in many forms, but when it comes to sensitive things, face to face is the best way out. talk them all out, and lets solve probs. once and for all, get it over and done with. y drag on and make things bad? wats the point?

it will oni worsen relationships and make ur lives sad and angry. both parties will not be happy with each other. one don satisfy one's need, another will not know, what izit that is not satisfied. is tat not a bother? tats a real lot of bothers!!

long ago

o...have i ever told u, this was a pic taken when both me and riana were thrown into a place call, reality. where we had to go all the way out there for something, we never knew, would be a waste of time and effort. it was...wat i call, sickening! but, wat the hell..its all over now. its just for memory. and all that has been, we will always remember!

ground no. 1

ground no. one, never ever think about doin something stupid! no...i cannot do anything stupid and silly! its out of my reach!! never think of that.

tat was a bad little tot. i know it is...who cares? i don bother. i do wat i want to and wat makes me feel MYSELF! yes, and thank u!

my way...its goin to be MY way, if u are sorry at the end of the day, its ur prob.

wat the hell@@

i dono....i seriously dont! and don ask me y i dont cos i have tot of that stupid question a billion and one times, and nothing! nothing comes out!!!!

i seriously find it hard to believe that some ppl could just get pass away tat easily. how come i cant? wats so different in me that i CANT??? yes, tell me!
izit my brains? or my eyes? or?? wat??? i don see any difference! i cant take it anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life is so unfair, nothing is fair i know, but does it have to till tat extent? till the point where i don get wat i paid so much for? wat i have been waiting to prove and get at least a final-sigh..i finally did it?? did i not deserve such a treatment or was it tat i really don?
how can i not? i worked hard, so hard for wat i wanted to get, to at least...hav that little comment in my little heart, but, it never comes. never!!

i don see y i don deserve it, i really dont see y.. and how can other ppl who did not work hard for it, actually get wat they wanted?
i want that too..i really do. if i were to choose between working hard and getting the easy way out, i would take the easy way out. they both get the same outcome. wats the point of working so hard when life's short? i wanna be like them too. i really do. wat does it take to take it easy and make my life better?


do i have to take away my reputation? repo or wat? of wat? as if i am some kinda CEO, or a manager, wat? why does it even matter? i am nobody right now, and i dont see myself being somebody in the future that i have to keep my reputation of some highly well little student, who does everything she can, but, still never gets there.

oh....yes, never gets there. the whowhowho who never gets there...such a sad and pathetic story. should the world be told such a story? or should it be just held a secret? should i be the oni one who knows it..or should i announce it. share it with the whole wide world, that this is such an easy way to success and good results. y not? its so much easier. and...so much fun loving...

enjoying b4 finals...o....how many ppl can afford that luxury? i would love too! trust me....

but, sometimes, i just never have the little luck of being dirty and bitchy. mayb...i used them all up during my sec school like, to be too over bitchy. therefore, sad case. round round round~~

walah...the world still goes round. like....a....nin con poop!! ##

yokay...here goes..

ok, here it goes, once again, life without any worries.

how to be there? its hard, not easy at all, and never achievable. not that we cant reach it, it keep running away, and we need time to catch up, and that lack!

when its time to let go, let go. don hold on to something u will never hold long and in the end, hurt urself more than anyone else. when i was in secondary school, a fren of mine, cos of one little mistake, the whole of the other school was all against her. now, she wanted to make things right, u think possible? i don think so. they find her very irritating and always 'acting'. was she? she was not, she was sincere. but ppl on the other hand saw something else...not wat she wanted to project in her whole life.
off she went, and....tats it lah! hehe.

another thing, looks, i don see y looks are so important. they don really matter at all. in fact, who cares? pretty girls are just for show. they don mean anything at all. tats all, u are pretty, u get a few more looks from others, a few more flowers that u never want to see in ur life, wats the point? i don see why ppl want to be pretty and beautiful there when they don want any attention at all. zzz
i had a fren, who as not very pretty, fat and...just normal. and now? she wants to make it even better. on her frenster, she worte, lets make ourselves better looking. now...tat sound so extra fake?!?!?
looks fade, and...its no point to make urself BE pretty. just be baturally urself.

sometimes, we cant help it can we? we say we gotta do this and tat, but....things just don go out the way we wanted it to be at 1st. we're all lazy pigs..hehe...who aint no wanna do anything serious in life. for me, i just wanna be normal. lead a simple life, be happy with my family. donkey's goin to make that happen too!! hehe...we make each other happy. tats wat life is all about. to be HAPPY.

yulp...so..be happy. who cares of wat other's think of?
they can be much better of than u, but, so????