finals mood

finals mood=none!! omg....wats wrong. 

i dono izit because of the short sem thingy that makes me really sleepy! i seriously dono y. 

its so boring. reading some stupid moral. debating with what we call, useless theories and endless things regarding common sense in a very difficult manner. 

now...tell me tats something u und.....

the situation in seriously out of control. haiz....i keep sighing and its not good! its like very pessimistic and negative. aih....and its not good!!!! for my emotions and my study mood. 

ever wondered y we always tell ourselves we need to find the right mood? i think mayb its some stupid excuses tat we're giving ourselves. yes yes....i know i am giving it to myself now too. cant help it. feelings over rational thinking and responsibility....i think emotions win.

then we learn bout some religion. wow!!! all the funny words, hindu for eg, sunskrit? haiz....mad. practically, we in dooms day. haa....

they say, theoretically, people who score in moral are those who....don have moral. but....wat the hell, its just some stupid memorizing power, which i dont have currently...YET!

i just cant wait for this sem to be over, next sem comes in...and i think....it would be more....of a finals mood. it makes me feel very guilty if i don't study, yet....i have no mood to. well....tell me bout being a last min girl...its the 1st paper tomorrow and i am slacking like its not even important! @@@@...yea yea....i know.....

oh no!!!!!

oh dear...moodless. no mood to study, or do anything. 1st day bac after kinda long study week at jb. and....aih aih....sad case. NO MOOD!!!! ish!!

watever it is, i am in no mood at all, and i hate it. i gotta study, and donkey is comin. i cant imagine wat will i become then..haha..!!

but, i don want him to go over to his frens place in between...so...i MUST study now, to be able to spend a little more time with him. we're both going bac on the 18th. and.....sad case is...we WONT know when we are meeting each other again. well....the so call genting trip is cancel so....looks like..i might make arrangements to go to penang...

but, tat's if he wants me there...waa....emo emo emo.

watever.....

if i wanna go...he cant say much. hehe...lalala

but....again, i will think, who cares of this stupid finals.. i don wanna think about it. i wont be able to get 3.0 anyways...so...wats the point? 

yeah

happy day!!!! went shopping with hui, yunyun and sit looi!!! mid valley, metro jaya great sales!!! i bought so much but oni for 210bucks!!!! imagine...all branded stuf. hehe

one shirt for daddy, rm119 and oni rm35bucks!!! imagine. then....a dress, miss sixteen from 350 to only 150!!!! wat the hell????

and also a hag, from 119 to only 24!!! now tats wat i call...madness!! yeah!!

it was great la..

i also got a blusher for 14bucks!! hhe....dam happy.

then mummy wanted me to spend off the isetan rm50 dollar voucher. so....went to get some really expensive, not worth buying kinda blouse. but, ok la...with the vouvher, it oni cost me additional 29dollars. not bad!!! hee...my frens said it made me look thinner. which makes me happy!! haa

it was a great shopping spreee....which i have not gone for a really long time. buying like madness!! haa...its was real craziness!! next would be celebration for donkey. cant wait for that. hehe...its the next most important thing in my  life besides being with him

hehe....

excited. hahahaha....

sometimes, my life is great. its even greater when i am happy. 

accounting

i seriously have no interest in accounting. then y am i planning to do my acca? and....y am i not loving it since i HAVE to do acca? i am in such a mess. i love my life. its full of conspiracy and weird things happening. 

tats my life. welcome to my life.....

i see.....

now i know, how ppl change things tat would cause others to get into trouble. i should try them out myself too!! y not, makes no harm.

ppl done tat to me a million and one times, but....i don care. i wonder y izit that i bother so much just cause peiqi did the same thing just like any other bitch would do. mayb cos i rally hate her, and really dislike her a lot. tats y i cant stand it anymore when she does tat.

look what u have done!!! what a simple sentence and yet, has lots of meaning. 

i think that there are times when i cant help finding her really irritating and sickening. but, in life, there are so many of these kinda ppl. why should i bother? 

i tot of that many times, then....wondered was it because she did so many things to me that i feel sick and pissed off. i dono if things will change better for me if i just keep quiet. or....would things turn any better if i made her life miserable too. 

and i kinda wondered why shu yee and baoyi like her so much. i really don und. her facial expressions kills me inside out and makes me really sick. i dono why..they enjoy that moment of PAIN~~~

sometimes, ppl just open up to the world one day and they realize frens are no longer frens they tot they were. its a whole different story. did baoyi send her resume to me for checking? making use of me? and...y din anyone tell me tat  they were goin to go for interviews? i was left out. i din know. 

abby said that peiqi told me last night. peiqi herself told her bout it. wow...see how smart ppl manipulate stories? i was the one who went to ask her. i was the one who asked baoyi if they called her. i was. and yet, this is the feedback. why should i even bother in the 1st place? mayb....its like tat.

mayb i was born to be in a condition where....i wont have anymore close frens like van. mayb she will be the oni one left. well, its ok...i can have many frens...but none whom i can trust at all just like how i trust van. too bad. 

considerate??

whats the meaning of....being considerate. ?? what?

anyone???

let me tell u what some ppl define considerate.

peiqi defines it as....making sure her stuf are in a safe condition without having her to inform others that something of hers if different from others. for example: she has few packets of opened powder drinks in the fridge inside a box. well, oni she knows its opened. wow! and when ppl arranges the fridge so it will be neater, it spills off her stuf cos NO ONE knows its open. so..she finds that very inconsiderate as it has made her powder spilt. 

i find that a little too selfish. mayb others din think of that...which there is a posibility that no one would put open stuf unzip into a box, closed when no one can touch wats inside. right?

well......how do U define....CONSIDERATE??

wondering

i wonder....who is more important...me or ur roomie. haiz....sad case. its such a stupid thing. thanks to u, i know that i am very irrational for acting for myself. thanks

how could that be?? zzz...everyone has their rights. and its not my right to keep myself safe? my health? no?? ok...i din know that i am always to put myself into different danger in my life. 

i wished i would get deaf for good. i wont have to hear u talk while ur roomie makes noise at the back trying to attract attention from god knows how. 

that's the best.