o...

tuang....saD sase la!
hee..too bad. so how?

one two three

the song goes...one two three four five, once i caught a fish alive, six seven eight nine ten, then i let it go again. why did u let it go? cos it nit my finger so. which finger did it bite? this little finger on my right.

hee..results was out this mornin. another let down. i wonder y izit that i cant really do well in my studies. since young, the more i tried, the worse it becomes. but, how can i noT worK for it? i wanna do well. and excel too.

sadly, tats not how things turn out to be.

this sem, will be a busy one for me. and, i doubt that..i will be free. well, wat to say, things ar elike tat. hope the less i care, the longer i will go
haha...

angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am so so so angry with him! ish!!!!!!!!!!!!
dam it la!!!!!! dam pissed off!!

my life is so uncertain with him
everything is uncertain. dam it la!
say and say...but all bull crap. i will never believe anything he says, even when he says, i love u

never ever again

haiz..terrible. this night is terrible.

how can he say he'll be comin bac at 12 oni? 12 is such a bad time.
he said this afternoon, his comp at night oni can use the msn to on0, and on web cam. now..he's out. i cant believe tat. its sickening. can u imagine, the one u want is not with u but some one else.

worse is, i hav class at 8 tomorrow. i don care! i don wanna stay up for him. i wont! i will slp at 11. i will make myself slp. don matter..

sickening. its not tat i don let him go out but..its like..everytime he's free..i am free. but, when i am free..he's not. not not not!
hate it so much.
and he just called to say forgive him when he din know anything at all. just ask for some stupid forgiveness and not bother. yulp, not he din bother..i din tell.

i'm goin for a break~ hope so.

sometimes, things can be so sickenin..u just don feel like doin anything else. just nothing!
ish..dono y am i so mad bout it. ppl get use to not having to talk also. same oni.
talking bout talking on the hp, ish...even more sickening. his stupid hp making so much noise and its when he's talking to me oni!
ONI me!! wonderful!
i just hate talking to him now! hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just wish i were def. i wont hear anything anymore! i wanna be just alone! no one knows wat u are thinking! wat I am thinking in fact! if oni i don expect anything, then i wont feel let down. never expect anything anymore! haiz

FRIM

the day at FRIM, just last sunday, 25th may...was one of the best days. haha..fun all the way.

we went to frim at kepong..climb some hill tat was..kinda hard. it was hard!! tire all of us out.
then..had some nice breakfast and went to uncle wong's bro's place. fruits with movies all day long! enjoyyyy...lah!
mangoes....orange...and nangka...o!!!!

then had some nice dinner. lalala...

then was time to go bac home. ish....sad case. home here means..sg long. a place full of work load and nothing else. haiz...
a new sem is to begin soon! wat is takes for us to keep living..
for me..my dong!
hehe...lovelove!

to be or not to be

well and famous enough...she led her life well. but, never though that such a thing could happen to her.

i tend to wonder y izit some girls..just cant let go. they know how much pain and suffering it brings, and how much joy they would miss in the future. but..they just cant let go. sometimes, to me, when the time is right, and u think its not good to carry on this relationship anymore, letting go would be the best way to solve things out. but..she just never did.

again and again, she had to go through the same old sickening prob that makes her heart bleed, but, she never let go. y?

woman are like creatures born to earth to accept some fated rebel. something tat theY can never run away from. they have to go through the pain and torture during the ancient times where men were so much more a joy to them. compared to women, they were killed and sometimes, brutally treated. how much more do we have to go through b4 the world accepts us as..one of a kind? izit tat cos, we are more vulnerable? i doubt so. men are as, as we are.

some how or rather, some got through it well, and smoothly. others...were..still yet in that circle of fated pain.
i find it totally not acceptable. if i were her, i would just leave it and go on with my life. no matter how much it hurts, i am sure, it will oni at the beginning!

starting a new sem

good or bad..i dono..not up to me to judge now. but..i do hope for the very best. hehe..