never ever again

haiz..terrible. this night is terrible.

how can he say he'll be comin bac at 12 oni? 12 is such a bad time.
he said this afternoon, his comp at night oni can use the msn to on0, and on web cam. now..he's out. i cant believe tat. its sickening. can u imagine, the one u want is not with u but some one else.

worse is, i hav class at 8 tomorrow. i don care! i don wanna stay up for him. i wont! i will slp at 11. i will make myself slp. don matter..

sickening. its not tat i don let him go out but..its like..everytime he's free..i am free. but, when i am free..he's not. not not not!
hate it so much.
and he just called to say forgive him when he din know anything at all. just ask for some stupid forgiveness and not bother. yulp, not he din bother..i din tell.

i'm goin for a break~ hope so.

sometimes, things can be so sickenin..u just don feel like doin anything else. just nothing!
ish..dono y am i so mad bout it. ppl get use to not having to talk also. same oni.
talking bout talking on the hp, ish...even more sickening. his stupid hp making so much noise and its when he's talking to me oni!
ONI me!! wonderful!
i just hate talking to him now! hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just wish i were def. i wont hear anything anymore! i wanna be just alone! no one knows wat u are thinking! wat I am thinking in fact! if oni i don expect anything, then i wont feel let down. never expect anything anymore! haiz