day 1

a terrible start it was, but, yet...kinda interesting for all of us. with all the experience and all, haiz..tiring tiring tiring. tats all i can say. all work and nothing else, i just don und how to get it goin. well...things will be much better sooner or later. hehe..

if only things are much smoother, then life would be much easier. i dono...its like, stuck in between, and not getting anywhere, wonder wat are we actually goin towards. haiz.

ever felt like, its when u are needed only then u will be appreciated? well...tats it la. the feeling is so so so real. too bad, we don have a choice do we? zzz...

i hate it when we cant get things moving anywhere. all will be just stuck there and nothing will be moving at all. tats life. nothing more but, crap. but, everytime, i dono y its like, i am wrong all the time. no one else is, only me. and me. its just time to accept tat things are just meant to be like tat. and, i cant even complain. i say anything, or give any remark. nothing. just shut up. well, normal la.
but, wat can i do? just gotta accept things the way it is. one day, i will be stronger, stronger than ever. and i wont cry for stupid things like tat, i wont be down or angry. i wont have any feelings towards this kinda things and i wont have to be emo. all of these nonsense will just puff! turn to dust. i guess when tat day comes, my life would be much more happier, cos, u will be happier too! hee...and when u are, i will be too. tats the whole thing about.

yulp, we made a deal, u dont like it, u don call it a deal, but, i do. cos, its something tat i gotta change my attitude towards and make a whole lot of difference. see, u see it at 2 different angles, and, things would be much easier for both of us. u will see. hee

but, for the time being, i cant help being disappointed with all of this crap comin into my life. like u said, i should be more understanding and all, well, i will. no worries.